For a very long time
i thought the world was lived
through doing
i did and i thought
i lived through my head
my heart was something that beat, of course
but it was there to be pushed
exercised
and so i pushed it
felt it speed up
I’d be on the treadmill or such like
i never imagined there was a world all around me that i could feel into
i never realised there was magic underfoot
just logic
big sounds
big sights
the more the better
the louder the better
and when things happened
there was no thought of magic
it was just so
and when i heard voices they were my own
inside my head
and where there were unexplained happenings
they were coincidences
not the work of magic
yet now my senses are waking from a long, long slumber
and i begin to notice
where before i did not
sounds i have never heard before dance upon my senses
there is an unspoken language between me and my surroundings
not heard by many
the trees have come alive
the ground beneath me no longer one dimension
no longer flat, hard, something to walk on
now the ground beneath me sings
it leads to treasures – to the great fire that rages beneath our feet
and connects us as we look up
into the sky and beyond
into the sun
i feel connected
we are connected
this intricate web i have never felt before
silently weaves its way inside my heart
and in time will bring me ever so gently to that place of knowing inside my heart
that place of infinite wisdom
infinite space
it comes gently calling
and where i once ignored it
too busy to hear
now i hear it
now i don’t want to
now i call it magic